Hi, peeps! No, I don't mean that sometimes I forget to write. I don't think I forget; I think I tell myself I have nothing of value to say. I should stop doing that. I see the value in everything in the world except myself most of the time. That's depressing. I should knock that off.
Sometimes I forget how competitive I am. Last week, someone I don't know invited me to a Fitbit challenge. It was a get-as-many-steps-as-you-can-in-the-work-week challenge. I've been invited before, but this is the first one I joined. I also invited my husband and brother. My husband didn't join soon enough, and the challenge was full so he wasn't in it. My brother came in second with just under 70,000 steps. That's a great week, right? You know what I did? I had 99,287 steps in 5 days. I killed it.
In some ways, go me. I didn't feel like it was about winning really. It was about being true to the person I want to me--that I want other people to see me as. I can't decide today how I feel about that. I think I need to spend some time on that thought. I got in all my workouts except Friday, and I'm happy about that too. The part that isn't good is that I wore myself out. I didn't get nearly enough sleep last week, which left me so tired I couldn't function last night. Ugh. The whole point of exercise, for me, is to feel good. It's self-care.
So last night I got enough rest then went out to run. I was going to run for 30 minutes this morning, but it was too hot for me. I alternated 5-minute walks and 5-minute runs instead. It was hard because of the temperature and humidity. I like the heat for the rest of the day, but man, I do hate it when I want to run. I think I'm being a little smarter about it this summer than I have before. In other years, I've practically quit running, and I'm happy that this year I'm doing intervals instead of avoiding. I'd like to get my bike out more in the next couple weeks also. That's a good workout for me when it's really hot.
I'm rambling today. I think the moral of the story is that I need to remember what my goals are and make everything else--competition especially--second to that. I matter and have value even though sometimes I forget.